Please See Me Through My Tears by  Kelly Osmont


You asked, "How am I doing?"
As I told you, tears came to my eyes...
and you looked away and quickly began to talk again.
All the attention you had given me drained away.

"How am I doing?"...I do better when people listen, though I may shed a tear or two. This pain is indescribable.
If you've never known it you cannot fully understand.
   Yet I need you.~~
    When you look away,
     When I'm ignored,
      I am again alone with it..
Your attention means more than you can ever know.

Really, tears are not a bad sign, you know!
   They're nature's way of helping me to heal...
    They relieve some of the stress of sadness.

I know you fear that asking how I'm doing brings me sadness ...but you're wrong.
The memory of my loved one's death will always be with me, only a thought away.
My tears make my pain more visible to you, but you did not give me the pain...it was already there.

When I cry, could it be that you feel helpless, not knowing what to do?
You are not helpless, and you don't need to do a thing but be there.
When I feel your permission to allow my tears to flow, you've helped me.~~
   You need not speak.
    Your silence as I cry is all I need.
     Be patient...do not fear.

Listening with your heart to "how I am doing" relieves the pain, for when the tears can freely come and go, I feel lighter.

Talking to you releases what I've been wanting to say aloud, clearing space for a touch of joy in my life.

I'll cry for a minute or two...
   and then I'll wipe my eyes,
      and sometimes you'll even find I'm laughing later.

When I hold back the tears, my throat grows tight,
   my chest aches, my stomach knots...
      because I'm trying to protect you from my tears.
Then we both hurt...
   Me~~ because my pain is held inside, a shield against our closeness...
      And you~~because suddenly we're distant.

So please, take my hand and see me through my tears...
      then we can be close again.

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